When I was a christian, i judged the homosexual. When i left christianity, i judged it. I watched the christians judge homosexuality and then watched the gay and lesbians judge the christians.
By the same right the new age spiritualists were just as prideful and judgemental as the christians, atheists, intellectuals, rednecks, straights and homosexuals.
Its in every religion, every walk of life… it isnt that any of these things are wrong, or right, but it is… the human condition.
To judge, to make ourselves more or, to judge ourselves and make ourselves less.
It is to some degree in all of us.
The word judge, has become spiritually taboo, but we all judge. Its as primal as fear, and as necessary. it has a role.
If we are honest with ourselves, we would see some element of what we judge in ourselves.
I have seen oftentimes that we become what we judge in some way, we actually become a part of that experience.
The young christian man that hates himself and hides his homosexuality in the closet and outwardly despises that which he is.
The preacher who preaches purity and yet loses his ministry because of an affair.
And so on…
When we begin to see ourselves in a light of acceptance, without flaws or need for perceived perfection, we begin to not need others to be less or more…
When we can not judge that which we fear, or do not understand…
Then we can move beyond the need to demonize, or label people… maybe our judgement could be used as a tool to analyze our surroundings, rather than a way to placate some inner inadequacy.
Maybe this is enlightment?
Or rather, the place where there is not enlightened ones, no need for religions or any other category that separates us from each other…
We simply are.
Nature. Mother Earth. Symbols of grace and beauty.
As I sit and look out my window at a glorious tree rising up to the baby blue sky, poking through the summer rain clouds. I ponder and admire the trees height and breadth. In the process I realize that this tree reached it’s current state of grandeur by taking what it is given. Standing strong and routed in one place… the great observer grows. Ah, time yes, the passing of time serves him. He is old and wise.
However, consider a shark. Also part of nature, takes what is given him but has to work for it, he has to follow his food supply. Some would say the vicious underside to life. He horrifically devours his prey. Yada,, yada, yada…Death is Life and vise verse. So as to not demonize the shark or admire the tree over the shark but realizing both have a significant role in life.
Now, are you more like the tree or the shark?
Well, myself I would say 70% Tree and 30% Shark. Meaning, I now have a figure I can work with. For instance, my friend Joe says to me, “Jeremy, people don’t want to help you because you go after what you want and they feel surely this guy will concur the world!” Wow, what a statement. I want people to help me and I want to help them. We need each other.
So, that “Go after what you want” could represent the shark that will inevitably find it’s next meal. Sometimes after a great deal of effort. Except, I don’t want to work that hard. So, my mission is to lower my percentage of “Sharkness” to 20%.
Now don’t get me wrong. A shark is as important as the tree. There are some of you that read this and thought, ” Oh yeah, I’m a tree.” and maybe even held your chin a little higher, but look at your lives? How does the lack of shark in you effect your relationships? Are you submissive, do you often let people take advantage of you, do you get angry at yourself for not sticking up for yourself??? On and on.
If you stop and simply ponder what is right in front of you sometimes… even if it’s a tree out a window you can gain insight about yourself. It is ultimately a game of self enrichment, an evolution of the soul. Think in terms of percentages and not “Either or.” In other words, “I am this and I am that” and to what percentage of this or that am I, and how does that serve me on my journey to my higher self?
Just some personal thoughts on a rainy day. JB
Think for a moment on modern popular music? Laden with mostly shallow interpretations of sex and love. Understanding that these things are popular because society perpetuates them. In many facets it is a means of escape, certainly not introspection. Music was a means of escape for me as well and when I no longer had a reason to escape I had to re-examine my relationship to it.
My struggle is to find that balance between pure expression and “purpose” of the expression. If the point of a sad song for example; is to emote how sad you are and thus attract to you all of those that are also sad, then you have gathered together a group of mutually sad people… awesome! Is this the desired response? To a certain extent I think it can be. Maybe they’ll download your song and share it with their sad friends and you’ll make a little money? BUT, looking a little deeper, now that we have this congregation of sadness why not use this is a teachable moment? Paradoxically speaking, if you were to say meet someone in their sadness and offer a ray of light then you would have dispersed the need for the sad song, and thus created it’s own end… to NOT be perpetuated and NOT sell thousands of copies. BUT you have created another avenue for another emotion, in another song. Eh, speculations… most of the music business is a mystery and I suppose that’s why I love it! Back to the point… (more…)
Righteousness as a root of evil? Yes, the pursuit of righteousness creates division. Not that division is always bad, it too serves a purpose as you will see. One, it assumes a separation between you and god, and the need for you to move closer to god, and then you have to analyze your perception of who god is and who you are? Are your definitions and perceptions accurate, have you done the emotional work that leads to clarity? Probably not, because if you had you would have abandoned your pursuit of righteousness. Two, it places you above the evil doers that aren’t as righteous as you have become. Three, once you have achieved said righteousness you have to fight off an emboldened sense of pride and ego.
Now as many christians might say here is where the devil will attack you with temptations. (more…)
I am not at war with authority or christianity. I am at war with ignorance.
We as a society have been spoonfed soundbites that have left most of us unable or even the desire to dig deeper. He said, she said, we said and it is repeated as if it is so. Christianity doesn’t teach freedom, it teaches you how to lock your mind up and thus your view of god. Although, the universe often teaches us through contrast, and eventually you will see the contrast between what you choose to believe and the fruition there of, if… you are looking for it?!
Anything based on the premise of fear, other than the most basic of survival instincts is a manipulation. “You are going to burn in hell if you don’t believe this!” Really? No. Governments argue an excuse to go to war by what? Making you fear what will happen if we do not. Simple, basic psychology, and yet millions of Americans buy into this crap daily. These things worked when we were children, but they don’t serve you now, let them go. (more…)
There are days that I am simply beat down and tired of fighting. Everyday of my life is a fight, it’s a fight to move physically and continue to do the hard work I do, it’s a fight to accept people in their fears and ignorance regarding the label society has placed on me and it’s a fight to simply be me. This is the point.
A thousand people say I am this or that. Some think I am a holy man, others think I am the antichrist. Some consider me a rock star while others know me as the guy that craftfully painted their house. Some see me as brilliant while others may see me as an ego maniacal fool.
When I first started recording music I used to doubt myself so much, and I would constantly ask those around me their opinions. I would take them in, make adjustments and continue to ask even more people their opinions. You see, everyone, no matter how good or bad the music was had an opinion. I tried hard to please them all, but then realized I could never make them all happy, so I stopped. I learned to trust my own judgements and talents and focused on pleasing myself. Much easier.
I find the same is true with my identity. I used to try to be everything for everyone and in the mix I lost myself… (more…)